The Answer

To Be or Not To Be...a lawyer, that WAS the question. Until recently. Now that I've been practicing law for the past three and a half years, I realize that I would rather play a lawyer on tv or on film.

While I was plowing my way through law school, I thought I wanted to be a trial attorney because I would get to "perform." Well litigation, thus far, sucks ass.

The only performance I give is pretending NOT to hate the face of the opposing counsel who is usually an obnoxious Plaintiff's attorney. Or when I put on my sheath dress and Audrey it up with pearls in my lawyer-uniform. I'd much rather wear a t-shirt and jeans.

Litigation was supposed to be fun! Much better than sitting in a stuffy office. That trial methods course I took in law school was a total lie. It was the most fun I'd had in law school because I was pretending. I had a script, I played a witness, then the prosecutor and it was fun! Don't get me wrong, I sometimes have fun deposing a witness or arguing a motion in Court, (ok that's a lie, its not fun. Its stressful and I hate it), but its nothing like that course in law school.

All this time what I really wanted was a forum where I could let the creative juices flow (hence the painting, teaching, writing, blogging, tweeting, etc). Law school was something I had to do, to prove I could do it, to make everyone proud, and to prove everyone wrong who doubted me. But this acting thing, well, I gotta do it for me, no matter the result. The only thing I need "To Be,"is happy.And I'm on my way.